My Double Life: A Pastor's Journey from Darkness to Redemption My name is Guam, and this is my true story. I began my church in 2018, filled with hope and a deep desire to serve God. I envisioned a growing congregation, one that would thrive on faith and community. But as time passed, the reality was far different. My congregation dwindled, and financial struggles weighed heavily on me. I watched with envy as fellow pastors and prophets attracted large followings and seemingly endless streams of income. The desperation grew within me, clouding my sense of purpose.